Sex Is On My Mind!

Ima virgin! I aint scared to say it, hell im proud!

But ive always thought about it eva since iwas a toddler... weird rite?

Im 15 now and my hormones are raging, but im still waitin on "dat special someone"... I havent met him yet, but ill kno him wen imeet him!

I am sooooo glad ineva gave it up to any of dem stupid boys dat ihave dated in my past, they dnt deserve me nor deserve to take my virginity... Im betta den dat! So is every otha female, were all beautiful in our own way so wait for the one who is "the one"

Ive always wondered when im gon loose it and who 2!

But when my 1st time comes, I want it to be speciallllll :)

I want my favorite song to be playin... Sex Is On My Mind by H-Town or This Womens Work by Maxwell!

I kno its gon hurt really bad, thats one thing that stops me from doin it... Along wit da otha reasons...

Idk y but ijus wonder....

Him!

Eva since we started tlkn icudnt keep my mind offa him!

Always telln me real sweet thangs dat ilovee...

Knowin damn well idont wanna be n a relationship, he keeps telln me how much he wud really lyk to be wit me!

Damn! Now im feelin him...

Im hella confused... Should itake dis chance, or should ikeep livin da single life dat ilove!

Im scared cuz all ican think about is da outcome of how da relationship wud end...

I wanna take dis chance but idk wat iwanna do...

I wanna say yes, but den iwanna say no so ikeep tryna find reasons why idont lyk him... bt icant seem to find one!

He seems lyk a nice guy, but only time can tell...

I just dont wanna get hurt, but hell im strong... mama aint raise no fool!
He said he wanna love me [not sexually], but im kinda wishin he wud jus wanna be friends and at da same time idnt!

I got dis big ass wall up, should ilet it down a lil?

I really dont wanna be tied down cuz idnt lyk havn a nigga blow up my fone 24/7 sayn where you @ or who you wit... bt at da same time imiss dem late nite conversations and iwould absolutely love to have dat again...

I kno im faithful, but is he?

People always ask y dont ihave a boifriend... its by choice! I kno im pretty [not bein cocky, jus sayn] but ijus dont wanna relationship!

I jus dnt kno wat to do...