Hey Guysss...

Long time, not post ehh? Lol well to answer that question its because I dont get on this shit no more! I got bored... So now im on www.thoughts.com! Its awesome, I love it... Just like I used to love blogger lol. But anywho just came on here to update you all or whoever I dont care lol

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This Might Be My Last Post...

I might be switching to wordpress... Im going to check it out 1st

Im Not Their Type...

Shes...

Sometimes...

I feel that I am so ugly! I look at myself in the mirror and I see a pretty girl, but when I go out into the world I just feel so ugly, unattractive and unwanted! I never pull any boys! No boys ever try to talk to me... I look my best at all time but I feel invisible! I dont know what it is! I hate that people only like me for my body shape, what about my face? Telling me that my body is beautiful doesnt make me feel good, it disgusts me on so many levels! Its been a year that ive been single, going on two when May comes back around! I love being single by all means, but sometimes I wish I had one that I could call my own! I have nothing near... I sometimes wonder why dont boys want to talk to me? Is it that im dark skinned? Is it that I look mean? Is it that im ugly? Too small? Too big? What is making no one talk to me? I hate being the center of attention, but I get no attention from boys at all! My friends tell me im pretty, the last boy that told me I was beautiful was my friend K.Burns! That doesnt count! Sometimes I just want to cry because of the way I feel! I mean like if I got a head nod and a smile I would be happy, but I dont get that at all! Sometimes I dont even want to go out in public because I feel that I am a beast! I sometimes compare myself to other females... What do they have that I dont? And these are the females that I know for a fact that I look better than! I hate this! My grandma always told me I was a beautiful chocolate girl... I use to believe that! Now im just like whatever! Hearing it from the same people, the words go in one ear and out the other! Hearing it from someone new, it sticks forever... Builds up my self-esteem, which use to be very high by the way! As these days go by it goes down even more! I want my high school sweetheart, but thats all in fairy-tales! I always tell everyone that I never want to get married because I feel that I am so ugly and no one will want me! I hate this feeling, I wish it would go away because its eating me up deep inside! My friends think I be playing when I say I dont pull! I be dead ass serious! No one wants me...

I Wish...

That people would read my blogs more often and follow me lol...

Keeping To Myself

Sometimes I feel that I cant talk to anyone about my problems anymore! There were four main people that I always vented and told my problems to! They are my bestfriends Ariel, Khadijah, Tia, and my mom! When I tell you something I dont want you to laugh and judge I just want you to help me get through it not make me feel dumb! Ariel and Khadijah are sliding their way off my list very fast! Now all I have left is Tia and my mom! With Tia, sometimes she doesnt give the "best" advice or what im looking for! With my mom, she can give me good advice but there are some things I just dont want to tell her! Its hard for me to start stuff off with her... It takes me awhile! I hate that! I just wish that I could talk to some one that would just listen, not laugh!

f.l.o.r.i.d.ayeeee

Lol, my birthday is coming up... September 4th to be exact! Im going to be 16 years young (: Happy, but not that really! Were suppose to be going down to Florida [home sweet home] for my birthday and I wanted to do a little something special with my friends! Khadijah, Ariel, Rae Rae, Kemani [if she got $$], and Kearia [but she never texted me back so fuck her] Anywhoo if i think of some more people I will indeed invite them! I wanted to have like a little Birthday Dinner with the best and afterwards a movie? That should be great... Either Takers, or The Last Exorcism! I think Ill go with Takers since its the talk of the town! I just want to spend my birthday with the ones I love! I plan to have a good time with them! And on Sunday, I believe, im going to be spending the day at Chuck-E-Cheese for my lil cousin Jon Jon's 3rd birthday! This will be my 1st time attending one of his because its during the school year and we never made it :( But I never missed one of Mikey's because his is during the summer! I ♥ them, along with the rest of my family, and friends! I surely hope my cousin Felecia straighten up because I would want her to come with us too! I miss her and I barely see her because I stay in Georgia and she stays in Chicago... But anywhoo I jus plan to have a good time with the best (: Ohh and I hope I get there early enough so that I can go to the football game and if I do I hope Ariel is cheering, thats something I dont want to miss... Thatll be like watching my child go off to school for the 1st day, except itll be me watching my cousin/ bestfriend in the whole wide world cheer for the 1st time!

Dont Drop The Soap...

Okay so we have to cars and they both have some kind of problem with them! My parents are cautious when they drive them because they dont want to get pulled over because they could get taken to jail is so! Of course my mom always gets pulled over, but they keep giving her warnings! She thinks shes slick! So how about yesterday, they pull her over and she texts me saying that they are going to take her in! I busted out laughing because it was too funny to me, why? Idk, it just was! I continued to laugh then I thought oh no, this can ruin my trip to Florida for my birthday! So I started praying to God that it didnt! Shes home now and I found out that they didnt "lock her up" they just had her in the holding cell... which means NO BAIL BONDS (: But I still laugh at her and I told her "Dont drop the soap" Lol haha

Bad Girls Club?

Bad Girls Club? Ahahaha, I think not these bitches are weak as fuck! Calling them "bad" should have never been an option... At all! They need to step it up, real shit! Despite them being whack I only fucks with a few! (: They on point...

Left To Right: Daniell, Erika, Brandi , Morgan, Lea, Cat, Kristen

Daniell: Why in the hell is she there in the first place? She aint fucking bad! Shes a fucking lame, whack, scary ass heroin addict! All she do is bounce around thinking she bad when she know she aint! She need to sit her lil drug head ass down before she hurt herself!

Erika: Aha, this bitch is something else! How she gone try to act all bad but when everybody turn against her she want to cry? Really now? Youre weak as fuck... Nowhere near bad!

Brandi: Lawdy now this one ugly bitch! She aint bad either! This lil stripping ass hoe need to gone somewhere! False claiming ass... Hoe you aint bad! If you were bad throwing Morgan out "Bad Girl Style" wouldnt have been done when she went out clubbing... That shit wouldve been done right in her face... Point black period! And the only reason why shes lesbian 90% of the time is because she cant pull a nigga with a face like that

Morgan: Lol this bitch here! She funny, conceited but funny! Obviously them ugly ugly bitches were intimidated by her because she was pretty, they werent! Get over it, its not her fault that she looks better than yall! Shes somebody that I really looked foward to watching... I hate that she got kicked off, I hope she comes back! She Badddd...

Lea: Lol I likes her! She cool, calm, collected and pretty! That lil punk rock shit she got going on... I love it! Unlike the other girls, she was the only one who wanted to kick Morgan out the right way and I have much respect for her because she was real with it... Bad!

Cat: Now this is my bitch! I fucks with her the long way! I love it when she gets buck on a bitch! Real af, BAD af, pretty af, thick af [no homo]... Wont nobody in that house step to her because they already know the business! Im ready to see my bitch bust some heads!

Kristen: Theres always a slow one in the bunch! Lol shes funny af and she may look all friendly and shit but she dont take shit! Honestly I dont know why shes there but I like her alot... So she needs to stay!

Morgan, Cat, Kristen... I fucks with yall bad asses!

Wtf Man...

Okay so yall know school has started... Yall know how much I hate being in school, better yet being in Douglasville... Georgia period! I only have one friend and I kick it with her 24/7! Im really getting aggravated with her because it seems to me that shes rubbing in the fact that shes moving to Riverdale next semester! Okay? Thats not something you tell me, id rather not know right now! All she seems to talk about is Riverdale... I dont want to hear it so I dont listen its as simple as that! She cant go a damn minute without bringing up fucking Riverdale! Uhm wtf from what ive heard it wasnt that exciting! Were we at the HOSA meeting at school and she goes "man this would be a great opportunity, but I wonder if they have this at Riverdale High" Were outside waiting for the bus talking to Jonathan and his brother and she goes "you know im moving next semester right, yupp im going to Riverdale High and we have to wear uniforms" then we see an ugly girl outside and she goes "thats the type of girl in Riverdale that the boys fuck because she has a nice body but when theyre confronted about it they deny it" uhm sweetie, they do that everywhere... Not just in fucking Riverdale! Im so tired of hearing Riverdale this Riverdale that... Ohh I cant wait til this semester ends, ohh im actually looking forward to going to school in Riverdale! Shut the fuck up for your own good and to save me the anger! Knowing the fact that thats my only friend, I wish that I wouldve made more friends when I started school! I hate the fact that I was so darn antisocial! Ughh now im going to be left alone with people I dont even like! Ohh well, I wish that she could stay but if she dont thats something im going to have to deal with... Life moves on, im just going to have to busy my self like ive planned on doing in the first place! Whatever...

Finally!

Geesh, and I thought it would take me forever! I recently started blogging in March 2010... Now its August 2010! If youre good in math thats a 4 month difference! Ive always wondered when a I going to reach 100 posts! And as I finished my last post I realized that, that was my 100th post! I was so happy (: <(-_-<) Claps for Kiana! I really love blogging... Gives me something to do in my spare time and I can let out all of my thoughts on here, wheather people are listening or not! I wonder how many posts im going to have before this year ends... Lets see (:

Time Is Near...

Yayyyy! In a couple of days I am going to be 16... Aha, really I mean nooooo! I really dont want to grow up and leave the nest! As much as I complain about moving out, at the end of the day this is where I want to be... With my mommy and daddy and I guess ill include my brother! Lol!But My birthday is September 4th, exactly 9 days from today! Omg idk what im going to do! My mom always told me that I was going to have a sweet 16, but I never wanted 1! I mean why would I have a party when I dont know anyone and no one knows me lol! Id really rather spend my time with the family (: You know, go out, have fun, a little dinner on the side... Ahhhh the good life! When I was younger I always wanted to be 16, I thought it was sooooo cool! Aha, the closer I get the more I realize its not! Im just 2 years away from being considered grown and leaving the nest! :'( I want to be a child foreverrrrr! I dont want to be an adult, life just went by too fast for me! God, please slow it down [Not school, speed that up lol] , im not ready for the real worldz! Knowing that im a bigass baby deep inside, im going to always be sitting on my mother or grandmothers lap! Geesh, im really upset about turning 16! Seems like just yesterday I was 6! Im going to miss everything! But all I really want for my birthday is food, my blackberry, a job, and my family ♥

Im tired...

My mom is so ehh! Im starting to reallyyyy dislike her! She always makes excuses for everything we do... Its always me or my brothers fault for everything, I hate that! She really pisses me the fuck off! Today, I was trying to tell her a story about my teacher, then she just comes out of nowhere cussing me out about the kitchen talking about me and my brother wreck her nerves! Excuse me... Bitch you wreck my nerves! Always complaining and nagging about shit, but yet you never get off your lazy ass and do it the way you want it done! I may be your child but I am not your servant, you are a grown ass woman... Do something with your life! Then out of nowhere she goes she really doesnt want us here, that teared me up for a min because to me it sounds like you dont even want us! Im about to be 16 and my brother is 14! I swear if there was anyway me and my brother could get an apartment and get support from the government I would just to get the hell away from her! She says she wants to send us to our grandma's back in Florida! I swear if she sends me down there I am NOT coming back! I cant stand her... She makes me mad everyday! If I ever get the chance to grow up, I will put her in a home just for the hell of it! Ive told her before, she thinks im playin! I have nothing to say to her... Just wait til im 17, Tia is getting a apt with her sister! If the lord is with me IM GON! But at the same time I dont want to leave my brother with an ignorant mother...

Dedicated To The Texters...

Okay bitches! I like to text, weak texters is never a option! If I like what you saying and how you carry a conversation of course ima give you my number, I mean like whats the purpose of having a phone then? But on the other had, if a muthafucka lacks conversations and a sense of humor he gets no play! So please dont bother in asking me for my number because ima just tell you "sorry no phone" or just ignore you! I hate them 1 day texters, dont give me your number and we only text 1 day and never speak again! That shows me that you werent even interested in getting to know me! NEXT... Slow texters got to go! Hate em, hate em, hate em... I like to keep a conversation going by all means! Im not a slow texter, I text back very fast! Butttt if you a slow texter and you make me wait a hr per text just to see your response, you best believe yo ass gon wait too! NEXT... 1 word texters are full of shit! I fucking hate yall! If I take my sweat time to type something and its a long ass message giving yo dumbass detail on sumn you wanted to know and all you can say is... "O, Oh, Lol, Haha, Ya" Im not fucking replying to that bullshit! I swear if thats all you going to say please save yourself the heartache of wondering why I never text you back! I only give out a certain amount of chances, preferably 3! After that, I will never text you again, nor respond when you text me! Such a waste of time... Annyoing texters need to get a damn life! Ill reply back whenever I feel like it dammit! The annoying texters are always the boring 1s, so I have to figure out what you say to yo dumbass in order to keep the conversation going! So what if I take a min to reply... That doesnt mean you send the same damn text 5 times then on the 6th time text again saying "Hellooo, ???, You there?" Yes bitch, Im there... Where the fuck am I gon go? Its obvious that I aint reply back for a reason, yo weak ass is boring as fuck! Naggin texters need to leave me the fuck alone! I really hate muthafuckas that complain... Bitch, I dont have to text you every damn day, thats not my job! Ill text you whenever I wanna talk to you, whenever you cross my mind, or if you come out the blue and text me! If you dont come out the blue, what in the fuck does that tell you??? Common since! Oh but peep this, when I do text you, you dont want to text back? Lmao! Oh wow, as said before I give 3 chances... After the 3rd time [different days, not within the same] I text you and you dont reply I just say fuck it! Seriously, what dont these people understand! Im not chasin after whatsoever, I dont wanna talk to you that bad... This goes the same with my bestfriend/ cousin! If I wanna talk to her REALLY bad and she dont answer im not chasin after her nor anybody else... We just wont talk as I see it! Then, a couple months later, the same muthafcka that never replied to my text wanna out the blue text me talking bout why I dont never text them! Bitch, its a two way line... Text and calls can come in and out! I dont see a problem, why the fuck is you bitchin? Grow some damn balls and stop actin like a pussy cuz MOST off yall naggin texters are males! Boring texters, omfg! I hate boring texters! If you do NOT have anything to talk about please by all means DO NOT text me at all! That will really make me mad af! If you people were smart you would just do something with your life! Me personally, if I dont have nothing to talk about I will not text you... Its a waste of time!

$N: This doesnt only go out for texters, callers are included! Im not being mean, im just telling the truth... RN$!

Leave Me Aloneeeee

Omg I am so freaking aggravated! I do not want to be bothered with nobody! Keeping to myself for awhile! Im not texting no one, calling no one, not replying to no ones text... All starting tomorrow! The only text I will reply to is Tia, my moms, && Louis's! I would put Ariel in this category but her daddy wont let her use his phone anymore... Bullshit! But ever since Friday when my "suppose to be crush" stood me up, I just got so angry && took it out on anybody/ everybody! All of a sudden everybody has became annoying! Esp this 1 girl, ehh I swear I hate texting/ talking to her sometimes... Most of the time because she is soooo annoying && be blowing my high all the damn time! If my phone dies, thats it... Idc to be honest! People think im playing with them... No im not laughing, smilin, or whatever! Leave me the hell alone, I want my peace... Me time is all I need for awhile!

8. 21. 2010

Im Fine...

Well she apologized! That made me feel a lil bit better, not mad anymore! I still love her to death! Friends are always gon fus n fight, I guess thats what brings them closer! She still my main bitch but that was wrong tho... At least she apologized, thats all that matters to me! ♥ && still fuck Kory!

IM BEYOND PISSED...

IM SO FUCKIN TIRED OF PPL IT AIN EVN FUCKIN FUNNY! RITE ABOUT NOW FUCK EVERYBODY... DEADASS! FUCK ALL NIGGAS, FUCK BITCHES, FUCK ASSOCIATES, FUCK FRIENDS... IM SO MAD IWANNA SAY FUCK FAMILY, BUT THEY ALWAYS THERE FOR ME SO NEVA DAT! TODAY IWAS SPOSE TO CHILL WIT KORY N TIA WAS SPOSE TO HAVE HER BOO... BUTTT TURNS OUT KORY WANNA BE A LIL BITCH N SAY HE CNT GO AT THE LAST FUCKIN MINUTE! WTF? I HATE DAT LAST MIN BULLSHIT NIGGAS BE TRYNA PULL... WE PLANNED DIS SHIT ON MONDAY && I SPECIFICALLY TOLD YOU TO LET ME KNOW IF YOU CANT MAKE IT BEFORE THEN && YOU SPECIFICALLY SED "I GOT YOU" NO DF YOU DONT CUZ IF YOU DID YOU WUDNT HAV SED DAT SHIT TODAY! DIS SUM STR8 BULLSHIT, I TELL YA! YOU HADDA WHOLE WEEK TO DECIDE WAT YOU WAS GON DO BUT YET YOU WANNA PULL DAT LAME ASS EXCUSE ON ME LAS MIN? DAS REAL FUCKED UP ON SOOO MANY DIFF LEVELS! I AIN EVN FUCKIN WIT HIM NOMO CUZ DAT REALLY BLEW MY HIGH! IM SO FUCKIN MAD RITE NOW IDK IF VENTIN BOUT DIS BULLSHIT EVN GON WORK! BUT DAT PART GOT ME GOIN FA LIL BUT DEN IWAS COOL CUZ NOW IAIN MAKIN NO PLANS ON MY TIME... HE NEEDA CUM C BOUT ME! BUT ANYWHOO DA PART DAT REALLY GOT ME PISSED DF OFF WAS DAT WEN ITLD MY FRIEND DA IAIN HAV NOBODY N HA FRIEND MADE UP A BULLSHIT LIE TALMBOUT HE AIN HAV NO FRIENDS AROUN... SHE LEF ME! HOW BOUT DAT? THATS THE MOST DISRESPECTFUL THING EVA! LIKE YOU AT MY HOUSE, UNDER ME/ MY MAMA SUPERVISION N KNOWIN DAMN WELL IAIN HAV NOBODY YOU JUS LEF ANYWAY? NOW DAT BLEW MY HIGH EVEN MORE! LIKE FARREAL... DAS FLAW AF && IF IWASNT IN DIS SITUATION, BUT MY FRIEND, OR ANYONE ELSE IM KOOL WIT WAS IWUD TELL DAT NIGGA IF HE AIN BRINGIN FRIENDS DNT CUM CUZ EVN IF IWASNT N DAT SITUATION IWUDA KNEW HOW IT FELT && NOW I REALLY KNOW! DAS Y IWUDNT DO IT BCUZ ITS WRONG ON SO MANY DIFFERENT LEVELS! SHE CAME BAC N DA HOUSE TRYNA TALK BUT IAIN HEARIN A DAMN THANG CUZ IM MAD AF @ KORY && MOST IMPORTANTLY HER... I JUS DNT UNDASTAND! NOW ITS QUIET LIKE A MUTHAFCKA BUT IDONT GIVE A DAMN CUZ IWASNT THE ONE ABANDONNED... NOW WAS I? UHM FUCK NO I WASNT! SO Y SHUD I BE HAPPY? I HAVE NO DAMN REASON TO BE! MAD AF RITE NOW && LIKE ISED DIS VENTIN AIN WORKIN A DAMN BIT! && BTW IM DUN CRUSHIN ON KORY BITCH ASS... AIN FUCKIN WIT HIM NOMO! IF HE WONT ME HE CUM GET ME HELL, IAIN CHASIN NO LIL DICK ASS NIGGA! SHUDDA STAYED TLKN TO HIS BRUTHA... AT LEAST HE SHOWED WEN HE SED HE WAS GON TO! FUCK DIS WORLD N DA PPL IN IT, I KINDA WANNA GO HOME NOW [N IAIN TALMBOUT TO MY HOUSE EITHA] --- MY CHRISTIANS UNDASTAND!

Not Again...

Lol today at school I wore my t-shirt thats neon colored blue, pink, green, and white that says "My Mind's Telling Me Noooooo [on the front]" && "But My Body Is Telling Me Yesssss [on the back]" and my neon pink leggins/ pants [jeggins]! Me personally, like ive said before, I hate walkin/ getting up in class because I feel people staring at my ass... I know its a nice size but dang, irritated much? Very! But anywho, I forgot to turn in my lunch form on the 1st day of school so I gave it to my teacher today [2 weeks later] but she was like im going to send you when class gets situated! Argggg... I knew one person was going to say something about my ass, esp Tre because he told me he be looking! Uhh! I left the class, came back and I have to walk pass Tre to get to my seat [we sit like across from eachother] and he goes "Girl you know them aint no pants, them leggins" and I go "So I dont care" as I walk pass and then for the big finale... Tre turns his head as I walk pass and yells GOT DAMN and smiles at my ass! Lmao, hes a fool!

Awesome Penis Drawings

This is so amazing, yet funny af!