Hey Guysss...

Long time, not post ehh? Lol well to answer that question its because I dont get on this shit no more! I got bored... So now im on www.thoughts.com! Its awesome, I love it... Just like I used to love blogger lol. But anywho just came on here to update you all or whoever I dont care lol

Hmu/ Find Me: www.thoughts.com/kayekhalifa

This Might Be My Last Post...

I might be switching to wordpress... Im going to check it out 1st

Im Not Their Type...

Shes...

Sometimes...

I feel that I am so ugly! I look at myself in the mirror and I see a pretty girl, but when I go out into the world I just feel so ugly, unattractive and unwanted! I never pull any boys! No boys ever try to talk to me... I look my best at all time but I feel invisible! I dont know what it is! I hate that people only like me for my body shape, what about my face? Telling me that my body is beautiful doesnt make me feel good, it disgusts me on so many levels! Its been a year that ive been single, going on two when May comes back around! I love being single by all means, but sometimes I wish I had one that I could call my own! I have nothing near... I sometimes wonder why dont boys want to talk to me? Is it that im dark skinned? Is it that I look mean? Is it that im ugly? Too small? Too big? What is making no one talk to me? I hate being the center of attention, but I get no attention from boys at all! My friends tell me im pretty, the last boy that told me I was beautiful was my friend K.Burns! That doesnt count! Sometimes I just want to cry because of the way I feel! I mean like if I got a head nod and a smile I would be happy, but I dont get that at all! Sometimes I dont even want to go out in public because I feel that I am a beast! I sometimes compare myself to other females... What do they have that I dont? And these are the females that I know for a fact that I look better than! I hate this! My grandma always told me I was a beautiful chocolate girl... I use to believe that! Now im just like whatever! Hearing it from the same people, the words go in one ear and out the other! Hearing it from someone new, it sticks forever... Builds up my self-esteem, which use to be very high by the way! As these days go by it goes down even more! I want my high school sweetheart, but thats all in fairy-tales! I always tell everyone that I never want to get married because I feel that I am so ugly and no one will want me! I hate this feeling, I wish it would go away because its eating me up deep inside! My friends think I be playing when I say I dont pull! I be dead ass serious! No one wants me...

I Wish...

That people would read my blogs more often and follow me lol...

Keeping To Myself

Sometimes I feel that I cant talk to anyone about my problems anymore! There were four main people that I always vented and told my problems to! They are my bestfriends Ariel, Khadijah, Tia, and my mom! When I tell you something I dont want you to laugh and judge I just want you to help me get through it not make me feel dumb! Ariel and Khadijah are sliding their way off my list very fast! Now all I have left is Tia and my mom! With Tia, sometimes she doesnt give the "best" advice or what im looking for! With my mom, she can give me good advice but there are some things I just dont want to tell her! Its hard for me to start stuff off with her... It takes me awhile! I hate that! I just wish that I could talk to some one that would just listen, not laugh!

f.l.o.r.i.d.ayeeee

Lol, my birthday is coming up... September 4th to be exact! Im going to be 16 years young (: Happy, but not that really! Were suppose to be going down to Florida [home sweet home] for my birthday and I wanted to do a little something special with my friends! Khadijah, Ariel, Rae Rae, Kemani [if she got $$], and Kearia [but she never texted me back so fuck her] Anywhoo if i think of some more people I will indeed invite them! I wanted to have like a little Birthday Dinner with the best and afterwards a movie? That should be great... Either Takers, or The Last Exorcism! I think Ill go with Takers since its the talk of the town! I just want to spend my birthday with the ones I love! I plan to have a good time with them! And on Sunday, I believe, im going to be spending the day at Chuck-E-Cheese for my lil cousin Jon Jon's 3rd birthday! This will be my 1st time attending one of his because its during the school year and we never made it :( But I never missed one of Mikey's because his is during the summer! I ♥ them, along with the rest of my family, and friends! I surely hope my cousin Felecia straighten up because I would want her to come with us too! I miss her and I barely see her because I stay in Georgia and she stays in Chicago... But anywhoo I jus plan to have a good time with the best (: Ohh and I hope I get there early enough so that I can go to the football game and if I do I hope Ariel is cheering, thats something I dont want to miss... Thatll be like watching my child go off to school for the 1st day, except itll be me watching my cousin/ bestfriend in the whole wide world cheer for the 1st time!

Dont Drop The Soap...

Okay so we have to cars and they both have some kind of problem with them! My parents are cautious when they drive them because they dont want to get pulled over because they could get taken to jail is so! Of course my mom always gets pulled over, but they keep giving her warnings! She thinks shes slick! So how about yesterday, they pull her over and she texts me saying that they are going to take her in! I busted out laughing because it was too funny to me, why? Idk, it just was! I continued to laugh then I thought oh no, this can ruin my trip to Florida for my birthday! So I started praying to God that it didnt! Shes home now and I found out that they didnt "lock her up" they just had her in the holding cell... which means NO BAIL BONDS (: But I still laugh at her and I told her "Dont drop the soap" Lol haha

Bad Girls Club?

Bad Girls Club? Ahahaha, I think not these bitches are weak as fuck! Calling them "bad" should have never been an option... At all! They need to step it up, real shit! Despite them being whack I only fucks with a few! (: They on point...

Left To Right: Daniell, Erika, Brandi , Morgan, Lea, Cat, Kristen

Daniell: Why in the hell is she there in the first place? She aint fucking bad! Shes a fucking lame, whack, scary ass heroin addict! All she do is bounce around thinking she bad when she know she aint! She need to sit her lil drug head ass down before she hurt herself!

Erika: Aha, this bitch is something else! How she gone try to act all bad but when everybody turn against her she want to cry? Really now? Youre weak as fuck... Nowhere near bad!

Brandi: Lawdy now this one ugly bitch! She aint bad either! This lil stripping ass hoe need to gone somewhere! False claiming ass... Hoe you aint bad! If you were bad throwing Morgan out "Bad Girl Style" wouldnt have been done when she went out clubbing... That shit wouldve been done right in her face... Point black period! And the only reason why shes lesbian 90% of the time is because she cant pull a nigga with a face like that

Morgan: Lol this bitch here! She funny, conceited but funny! Obviously them ugly ugly bitches were intimidated by her because she was pretty, they werent! Get over it, its not her fault that she looks better than yall! Shes somebody that I really looked foward to watching... I hate that she got kicked off, I hope she comes back! She Badddd...

Lea: Lol I likes her! She cool, calm, collected and pretty! That lil punk rock shit she got going on... I love it! Unlike the other girls, she was the only one who wanted to kick Morgan out the right way and I have much respect for her because she was real with it... Bad!

Cat: Now this is my bitch! I fucks with her the long way! I love it when she gets buck on a bitch! Real af, BAD af, pretty af, thick af [no homo]... Wont nobody in that house step to her because they already know the business! Im ready to see my bitch bust some heads!

Kristen: Theres always a slow one in the bunch! Lol shes funny af and she may look all friendly and shit but she dont take shit! Honestly I dont know why shes there but I like her alot... So she needs to stay!

Morgan, Cat, Kristen... I fucks with yall bad asses!

Wtf Man...

Okay so yall know school has started... Yall know how much I hate being in school, better yet being in Douglasville... Georgia period! I only have one friend and I kick it with her 24/7! Im really getting aggravated with her because it seems to me that shes rubbing in the fact that shes moving to Riverdale next semester! Okay? Thats not something you tell me, id rather not know right now! All she seems to talk about is Riverdale... I dont want to hear it so I dont listen its as simple as that! She cant go a damn minute without bringing up fucking Riverdale! Uhm wtf from what ive heard it wasnt that exciting! Were we at the HOSA meeting at school and she goes "man this would be a great opportunity, but I wonder if they have this at Riverdale High" Were outside waiting for the bus talking to Jonathan and his brother and she goes "you know im moving next semester right, yupp im going to Riverdale High and we have to wear uniforms" then we see an ugly girl outside and she goes "thats the type of girl in Riverdale that the boys fuck because she has a nice body but when theyre confronted about it they deny it" uhm sweetie, they do that everywhere... Not just in fucking Riverdale! Im so tired of hearing Riverdale this Riverdale that... Ohh I cant wait til this semester ends, ohh im actually looking forward to going to school in Riverdale! Shut the fuck up for your own good and to save me the anger! Knowing the fact that thats my only friend, I wish that I wouldve made more friends when I started school! I hate the fact that I was so darn antisocial! Ughh now im going to be left alone with people I dont even like! Ohh well, I wish that she could stay but if she dont thats something im going to have to deal with... Life moves on, im just going to have to busy my self like ive planned on doing in the first place! Whatever...

Finally!

Geesh, and I thought it would take me forever! I recently started blogging in March 2010... Now its August 2010! If youre good in math thats a 4 month difference! Ive always wondered when a I going to reach 100 posts! And as I finished my last post I realized that, that was my 100th post! I was so happy (: <(-_-<) Claps for Kiana! I really love blogging... Gives me something to do in my spare time and I can let out all of my thoughts on here, wheather people are listening or not! I wonder how many posts im going to have before this year ends... Lets see (:

Time Is Near...

Yayyyy! In a couple of days I am going to be 16... Aha, really I mean nooooo! I really dont want to grow up and leave the nest! As much as I complain about moving out, at the end of the day this is where I want to be... With my mommy and daddy and I guess ill include my brother! Lol!But My birthday is September 4th, exactly 9 days from today! Omg idk what im going to do! My mom always told me that I was going to have a sweet 16, but I never wanted 1! I mean why would I have a party when I dont know anyone and no one knows me lol! Id really rather spend my time with the family (: You know, go out, have fun, a little dinner on the side... Ahhhh the good life! When I was younger I always wanted to be 16, I thought it was sooooo cool! Aha, the closer I get the more I realize its not! Im just 2 years away from being considered grown and leaving the nest! :'( I want to be a child foreverrrrr! I dont want to be an adult, life just went by too fast for me! God, please slow it down [Not school, speed that up lol] , im not ready for the real worldz! Knowing that im a bigass baby deep inside, im going to always be sitting on my mother or grandmothers lap! Geesh, im really upset about turning 16! Seems like just yesterday I was 6! Im going to miss everything! But all I really want for my birthday is food, my blackberry, a job, and my family ♥

Im tired...

My mom is so ehh! Im starting to reallyyyy dislike her! She always makes excuses for everything we do... Its always me or my brothers fault for everything, I hate that! She really pisses me the fuck off! Today, I was trying to tell her a story about my teacher, then she just comes out of nowhere cussing me out about the kitchen talking about me and my brother wreck her nerves! Excuse me... Bitch you wreck my nerves! Always complaining and nagging about shit, but yet you never get off your lazy ass and do it the way you want it done! I may be your child but I am not your servant, you are a grown ass woman... Do something with your life! Then out of nowhere she goes she really doesnt want us here, that teared me up for a min because to me it sounds like you dont even want us! Im about to be 16 and my brother is 14! I swear if there was anyway me and my brother could get an apartment and get support from the government I would just to get the hell away from her! She says she wants to send us to our grandma's back in Florida! I swear if she sends me down there I am NOT coming back! I cant stand her... She makes me mad everyday! If I ever get the chance to grow up, I will put her in a home just for the hell of it! Ive told her before, she thinks im playin! I have nothing to say to her... Just wait til im 17, Tia is getting a apt with her sister! If the lord is with me IM GON! But at the same time I dont want to leave my brother with an ignorant mother...

Dedicated To The Texters...

Okay bitches! I like to text, weak texters is never a option! If I like what you saying and how you carry a conversation of course ima give you my number, I mean like whats the purpose of having a phone then? But on the other had, if a muthafucka lacks conversations and a sense of humor he gets no play! So please dont bother in asking me for my number because ima just tell you "sorry no phone" or just ignore you! I hate them 1 day texters, dont give me your number and we only text 1 day and never speak again! That shows me that you werent even interested in getting to know me! NEXT... Slow texters got to go! Hate em, hate em, hate em... I like to keep a conversation going by all means! Im not a slow texter, I text back very fast! Butttt if you a slow texter and you make me wait a hr per text just to see your response, you best believe yo ass gon wait too! NEXT... 1 word texters are full of shit! I fucking hate yall! If I take my sweat time to type something and its a long ass message giving yo dumbass detail on sumn you wanted to know and all you can say is... "O, Oh, Lol, Haha, Ya" Im not fucking replying to that bullshit! I swear if thats all you going to say please save yourself the heartache of wondering why I never text you back! I only give out a certain amount of chances, preferably 3! After that, I will never text you again, nor respond when you text me! Such a waste of time... Annyoing texters need to get a damn life! Ill reply back whenever I feel like it dammit! The annoying texters are always the boring 1s, so I have to figure out what you say to yo dumbass in order to keep the conversation going! So what if I take a min to reply... That doesnt mean you send the same damn text 5 times then on the 6th time text again saying "Hellooo, ???, You there?" Yes bitch, Im there... Where the fuck am I gon go? Its obvious that I aint reply back for a reason, yo weak ass is boring as fuck! Naggin texters need to leave me the fuck alone! I really hate muthafuckas that complain... Bitch, I dont have to text you every damn day, thats not my job! Ill text you whenever I wanna talk to you, whenever you cross my mind, or if you come out the blue and text me! If you dont come out the blue, what in the fuck does that tell you??? Common since! Oh but peep this, when I do text you, you dont want to text back? Lmao! Oh wow, as said before I give 3 chances... After the 3rd time [different days, not within the same] I text you and you dont reply I just say fuck it! Seriously, what dont these people understand! Im not chasin after whatsoever, I dont wanna talk to you that bad... This goes the same with my bestfriend/ cousin! If I wanna talk to her REALLY bad and she dont answer im not chasin after her nor anybody else... We just wont talk as I see it! Then, a couple months later, the same muthafcka that never replied to my text wanna out the blue text me talking bout why I dont never text them! Bitch, its a two way line... Text and calls can come in and out! I dont see a problem, why the fuck is you bitchin? Grow some damn balls and stop actin like a pussy cuz MOST off yall naggin texters are males! Boring texters, omfg! I hate boring texters! If you do NOT have anything to talk about please by all means DO NOT text me at all! That will really make me mad af! If you people were smart you would just do something with your life! Me personally, if I dont have nothing to talk about I will not text you... Its a waste of time!

$N: This doesnt only go out for texters, callers are included! Im not being mean, im just telling the truth... RN$!

Leave Me Aloneeeee

Omg I am so freaking aggravated! I do not want to be bothered with nobody! Keeping to myself for awhile! Im not texting no one, calling no one, not replying to no ones text... All starting tomorrow! The only text I will reply to is Tia, my moms, && Louis's! I would put Ariel in this category but her daddy wont let her use his phone anymore... Bullshit! But ever since Friday when my "suppose to be crush" stood me up, I just got so angry && took it out on anybody/ everybody! All of a sudden everybody has became annoying! Esp this 1 girl, ehh I swear I hate texting/ talking to her sometimes... Most of the time because she is soooo annoying && be blowing my high all the damn time! If my phone dies, thats it... Idc to be honest! People think im playing with them... No im not laughing, smilin, or whatever! Leave me the hell alone, I want my peace... Me time is all I need for awhile!

8. 21. 2010

Im Fine...

Well she apologized! That made me feel a lil bit better, not mad anymore! I still love her to death! Friends are always gon fus n fight, I guess thats what brings them closer! She still my main bitch but that was wrong tho... At least she apologized, thats all that matters to me! ♥ && still fuck Kory!

IM BEYOND PISSED...

IM SO FUCKIN TIRED OF PPL IT AIN EVN FUCKIN FUNNY! RITE ABOUT NOW FUCK EVERYBODY... DEADASS! FUCK ALL NIGGAS, FUCK BITCHES, FUCK ASSOCIATES, FUCK FRIENDS... IM SO MAD IWANNA SAY FUCK FAMILY, BUT THEY ALWAYS THERE FOR ME SO NEVA DAT! TODAY IWAS SPOSE TO CHILL WIT KORY N TIA WAS SPOSE TO HAVE HER BOO... BUTTT TURNS OUT KORY WANNA BE A LIL BITCH N SAY HE CNT GO AT THE LAST FUCKIN MINUTE! WTF? I HATE DAT LAST MIN BULLSHIT NIGGAS BE TRYNA PULL... WE PLANNED DIS SHIT ON MONDAY && I SPECIFICALLY TOLD YOU TO LET ME KNOW IF YOU CANT MAKE IT BEFORE THEN && YOU SPECIFICALLY SED "I GOT YOU" NO DF YOU DONT CUZ IF YOU DID YOU WUDNT HAV SED DAT SHIT TODAY! DIS SUM STR8 BULLSHIT, I TELL YA! YOU HADDA WHOLE WEEK TO DECIDE WAT YOU WAS GON DO BUT YET YOU WANNA PULL DAT LAME ASS EXCUSE ON ME LAS MIN? DAS REAL FUCKED UP ON SOOO MANY DIFF LEVELS! I AIN EVN FUCKIN WIT HIM NOMO CUZ DAT REALLY BLEW MY HIGH! IM SO FUCKIN MAD RITE NOW IDK IF VENTIN BOUT DIS BULLSHIT EVN GON WORK! BUT DAT PART GOT ME GOIN FA LIL BUT DEN IWAS COOL CUZ NOW IAIN MAKIN NO PLANS ON MY TIME... HE NEEDA CUM C BOUT ME! BUT ANYWHOO DA PART DAT REALLY GOT ME PISSED DF OFF WAS DAT WEN ITLD MY FRIEND DA IAIN HAV NOBODY N HA FRIEND MADE UP A BULLSHIT LIE TALMBOUT HE AIN HAV NO FRIENDS AROUN... SHE LEF ME! HOW BOUT DAT? THATS THE MOST DISRESPECTFUL THING EVA! LIKE YOU AT MY HOUSE, UNDER ME/ MY MAMA SUPERVISION N KNOWIN DAMN WELL IAIN HAV NOBODY YOU JUS LEF ANYWAY? NOW DAT BLEW MY HIGH EVEN MORE! LIKE FARREAL... DAS FLAW AF && IF IWASNT IN DIS SITUATION, BUT MY FRIEND, OR ANYONE ELSE IM KOOL WIT WAS IWUD TELL DAT NIGGA IF HE AIN BRINGIN FRIENDS DNT CUM CUZ EVN IF IWASNT N DAT SITUATION IWUDA KNEW HOW IT FELT && NOW I REALLY KNOW! DAS Y IWUDNT DO IT BCUZ ITS WRONG ON SO MANY DIFFERENT LEVELS! SHE CAME BAC N DA HOUSE TRYNA TALK BUT IAIN HEARIN A DAMN THANG CUZ IM MAD AF @ KORY && MOST IMPORTANTLY HER... I JUS DNT UNDASTAND! NOW ITS QUIET LIKE A MUTHAFCKA BUT IDONT GIVE A DAMN CUZ IWASNT THE ONE ABANDONNED... NOW WAS I? UHM FUCK NO I WASNT! SO Y SHUD I BE HAPPY? I HAVE NO DAMN REASON TO BE! MAD AF RITE NOW && LIKE ISED DIS VENTIN AIN WORKIN A DAMN BIT! && BTW IM DUN CRUSHIN ON KORY BITCH ASS... AIN FUCKIN WIT HIM NOMO! IF HE WONT ME HE CUM GET ME HELL, IAIN CHASIN NO LIL DICK ASS NIGGA! SHUDDA STAYED TLKN TO HIS BRUTHA... AT LEAST HE SHOWED WEN HE SED HE WAS GON TO! FUCK DIS WORLD N DA PPL IN IT, I KINDA WANNA GO HOME NOW [N IAIN TALMBOUT TO MY HOUSE EITHA] --- MY CHRISTIANS UNDASTAND!

Not Again...

Lol today at school I wore my t-shirt thats neon colored blue, pink, green, and white that says "My Mind's Telling Me Noooooo [on the front]" && "But My Body Is Telling Me Yesssss [on the back]" and my neon pink leggins/ pants [jeggins]! Me personally, like ive said before, I hate walkin/ getting up in class because I feel people staring at my ass... I know its a nice size but dang, irritated much? Very! But anywho, I forgot to turn in my lunch form on the 1st day of school so I gave it to my teacher today [2 weeks later] but she was like im going to send you when class gets situated! Argggg... I knew one person was going to say something about my ass, esp Tre because he told me he be looking! Uhh! I left the class, came back and I have to walk pass Tre to get to my seat [we sit like across from eachother] and he goes "Girl you know them aint no pants, them leggins" and I go "So I dont care" as I walk pass and then for the big finale... Tre turns his head as I walk pass and yells GOT DAMN and smiles at my ass! Lmao, hes a fool!

Awesome Penis Drawings

This is so amazing, yet funny af!

Feenin...

Mannnn, all my friends are loosing their virginities! Ive been wanting to loose mine since school 1st started on the 5th of August! Now as the days go buy I know who I want to loose it too, he wants to loose it to me too... Were both virgins (: But 1 of my close friends told me that they did it already! Man that made me wanna do it more... Then today my close friend's friend (were cool too) told me that they lost it! Now I really want to do it so bad! Omg idk how much longer I can take of this! It needs to go down ASAP! But even if I dont do it yet I still want to spend time with the crush... K.Burns ♥

The Lords Prayer

Our father who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done
On earth
As it is in heaven
Give us this day
Our daily bread
And forgive us for all out trespasses
As we forgive those, who trespass against us
Lead us not, into temptation
But deliver us from evil
For thine is the kingdom
The power and the glory
Forever and ever
Amen!
Goodnight (:

Gasp!

Aw man, im totally looking foward to friday! Hopefully, praying that the crush could come and chill at the pool with me! I really hope so because ive NEVER chilled or seen him and weve been kool for 3 years! Last time ive seen him was 3 yrs ago at my cousin James party, I dont even remember seeing him there but okay lol! I just wish this the best of luck because I really want to chill with him, esp since I like him (: ♥ Geesh, I pray to God that everything goes as planned... Please please pleaseeee! This would be wonderful! But if he does come I dont know what to talk about! I hate my shyness sometimes because I dont want to just sit there and smile stupidly! I want to make his trip worth coming out here... I hope I dont bore him to dealth! Omg im going to cry im so scared! I already have the butterflies and its only monday, I need to tighten up... Quik, fast, and in a hurry... ASAP! I pray everything goes well, very well!

Yawnnnn!

School tomorrow! Mommy please, I dont wanna go lmao! I cant wait until I graduate High School and im adding college to that list because I know its not going to be any better! Smh TV flexxin!

STOP lieing to me...

Recently, last week to be exact, my mom told me and my brother that we were getting clothes THIS weekend! Its Sunday, no clothes! Hmmm I never believed her in the first place because theyre ALWAYS telling us what were going to get and when and it never fuckin happens! That pisses me the fuck off because im looking foward to something that you PROMISED me and now I cant get it! I dont know what the hell im going to wear to school because I have no damn clothes! I swear this is not the business, at all! I mean like WHY promise us things and at the end of the day it seems it was only said to raise our spirits? I freaking hate that! Everytime shes been telling me were getting this I get so angry and be like "whatever" and she goes "dont get smart" and I go "Im not getting smart, I tired of yall telling me im going to get something and I NEVER do" she goes "We be going through some things" I go "So what! If thats the case STOP telling me what youre going to get me because I know its never going to happen anyways"!!! Everytime I get my hopes up, it never happens so I stopped that! Now I just dont believe whats coming out of their mouths and it still doesnt happen! WHATTHEFUCK? Not oly clothes, she promised me a Blackberry Curve 8520, oh my gosh I want that phone so freaking bad, ever since my Blackberry Pearl 8100 broke, once again, ive been promised another one for awhile now! As a matter of fact, last week, my parent told me that I would get one THIS weekend because the upgrade is only $2o.oo! Now im really pissed because Ive been promised a new blackberry all summer and yet im still stuck with this fucked up, ugly, flip phone Nokia and I want my damn Blackberry and clothes... I feel a crying session coming on!

I Wanna SLEEP!

Mann idk why my mom does this to me! Everytime its a sunday she wants to wake us up all extra early, come on! I am tired AF, you cant at least let me sleep til 11? What harm will that do? Omg I really need to go to sleep because I am so tired right now! My bed is calling my name! Man tonite im not playing no games, im going to bed at 11 not 12, not 1 but 11 because I need atleast 7 hours of sleep! Or I might go at 10 of im that tired! Theres school in the morning, I dont want to go! I just want this torture [high school] to be overwith, I cant take this bullshit anymore! Ughh I need to do my homework for school so that I can "Go to sleep". My mom is going to be busting in and out of my room today! And if shse sees my door closed, as it is always, shes going to bust up in here thinking im sleeping! Im going to hide out in my closet and go to sleep shoot! Or she needs to leave the house so I can go to dammit sleep because I am sooooooooo freakin tired it dont make no sense! Ahhhh im about to scream, lord spare me! I dont know why I am always so tired and want to lay down... Oh yeah because im a lazy bum! Lol

Dumb Nigga!

Ughh I dont know what was even going through my mind when I kissed that ugly boy at stars and strikes... Oh wait I know, I aint want to be bored and left out and loney because Ariel had hers! Man I wish I hadn't gave him my number though! Its just another contact in my phonebook! Im not texting him not calling him, I cant stand him! For one hes ugly and another reason is because he's an asshole! Okay so fuckin what if everytime I answer your question saying "Ummm okayy? [my answer]" "Ummm [my answer]" Obviously I may be a little confused but a asshole like you got to go get all mad because im "being slick" get the fuck out of here with your little ass dick! Which by the way looks better than your face! Its clear that I dont care about you, dont want to kick it with you, dont want to talk to you, ect. if I dont never call you or text you! Like come on! Does it really matter who else Im talkin to? No, youre not my boyfriend Im free to do as I please and I could careless about what you have to say! You can go ahead and delete my damn number because its not like im calling your dumb ugly ass anyways! Hell im strait without you, I didnt need you then and I dont need you now or ever... I dont have nothing to complain/ cry about! Just losing another "assosiate"/ contact! Like it wasnt going to happen anyways! But im glad you dislike my "smart mouth" now I dont have to worry about you asking me out because your brother asks me when am I going to be your girl and I was thinking of a nice way to say hell no lmao! Aha, boys are funny but so what! I know someone who can put up with my "smart mouth" and I like him so I dont have a "smart mouth" with him! So what does that tell you Fred? Get a life hahaha!

Pathetic Much?

Lmao so i was on tagged and this boy messaged me... Lemme jus show the series!

Him: Hey

Me: Wussup

Him: You like sendin dirty pics

Me: Uhm dont come on here askn me dat bullshit esp if ion even kno you... Go ask sumbody else hell!

Him: Ok stupid bitch dont get salty hoe i just asked a question

Me: Lmao you funny af you kno dat? I cud careless bout yo lil remarks cuz ion evn kno you n iain sweatin you cuz it ain nun to evn get mad about like really! I kno you askd a question and i answered... Am irite? Yupp iam!

Lmao can yall tell me whats wrong wit dis? Lol dis nigga called me a hoe and a bitch! I ain offended cuz icud giv to shits bout whatta nigga gots to day... esp ova da INTERNET lmao! Im surprised iain evn cuss him out, i literally lafd @ his ass cuz it was funny af! Gotta let pathetic ass niggas kno dese days dat they dnt phase me! Smh get a life...

SN: if iwas a hoe dont you think iwuda sent you dem pics, esp not knowin who you are n wat you bout? Lmao silly boy!

Sleepin Good Toniteeee...

Boy o boy! I talked to the crush today :D Convo started roun 5 ended rite now! I miss tlkn to him! Im thru with his brother, I never wanted him in the first place! But I was so happy, he called me boo before he went to sleep! Ohmy I was cheesin super hard! Thats the most I have ever smiled! Usually I would only talk to a boy just for his money, but if we ever got together one day... just one day I wouldnt do that do him! Hes too sweet (: ♥ He told me he knew everything about me so I asked him what he knew about me! He knew what my sign was, my birthday, my favorite movie, and where iwas born and raised! I was schocked because my ex dont even kno all that, he jus knows ima virgin! Ehh! Sad part is is that I dont know anything about him :( $uck$a$$... But ima gonna get excellent sleep tonite... Good dreams bout me and the future boo! Hmmmmm (:

If We Do The Unthinkable

I was wondering maybe, Could I make you my baby, If we do the unthinkable, Would it make us look crazy??? If you ask me Im ready ♥

Dear K.Burns, Its Like...

Wow, when I first seen you/ met you 3 years ago when we both were in the 7th grade I was like ehh? We can just be friends... Nothing more, nothing less! We got closer because we kept a convo forever! I loved talking to you though I was never attracted! You started calling me your baby and I called you my boo... I thought nothing of it because I did that with boys sometimes! I got your phone number but we barely talk... Its just a hey baby here and a hey boo there, once again nothing more nothing less! Now were just cool af... We havent fell off, well not that I know of! But ever since that day I kissed your brother I began to feel guilty! Today I was on FB and I looked at your pics... You are just so damn cute, Nice dreads, Nice body, Nice person in general and I think to myself how could I do this... Thats when I realized I was attracted to you, not your brother, but you K.Burns! Its buggin me like crazy because I wanted you to know how what was really going on! Im just scared in the end your gone be hurt and I dont want to do that because I got so much love for you! I just didnt think about that... I wish I would have! The guiltier I feel about this the more attracted I am to you, the more I think about you! Omg why is this happening to me? I need to get this off my chest before I blow up! No more kissing his brother, I just want to talk so I can figure out how ima tell the you, the one that im crushing on! But I dont want this because I kissed your brother... Even though thats all its wrong! Lord spare me, I cant take this guilt! Please fill me with the courage to tell this him! Im praying to God you would forgive me! I hope you do because im feelin you now! "K.Burns I Wanna Be Ya Girl... Idk if its a phase rite now but im feelin you oso much! I know i said i wouldnt date anyone younger than me... even by a few months! I could care less rite now because I WANT YOU ♥! Not your brother"

Chaotic Shakaz Official Back Breakaz...

My Guilty Pleasure

So i have a friend, who has a brother! Me and my friend is kool, das my nigga... I always called him my boo and he'd call me his baby! It was never that serious to me because I didnt like him like that, but my cousin thinks he had (s) a lil crush on me! Well he has a brother and ive been messing around with him [just kissed and chilled, nothing more, nothing less] Im scared to tell him that ive kissed his brother omg! Like i dont know what his reaction would be! Jesus Christ i really regret this because i was on fb and i looked at my friends pics and he is soooo cute, nice body, dreads ♥ omg that coudlve been mine, but i cant keep it in the family thats #NastyAF! I wish this never wouldve happened, seriously! I want to be his friend forever and if he finds out I know hes going to get mad and stop talking to me, I just know it... But I pray to God that he doesnt because he is the koolest/ realest dude i have met since i have been in Georgia and I most definitely dont want to lose his friendship for nothing in the world! Even though I kissed his brother, I can say that I have no feelings for him whatsoever! None, Nada, Zero! I pray to God that he doesnt take it to the extreme when he finds out because I know how some guys are! But the only weird thing is that I dont like neither of them like that at all... I just feel so damn guilty! Lord Spare Me...

Sexual Harrasment Much? Lol

Lol I was at skool and mind you ihate gettin up to turn in papers or get papers from the teacher! Anywhooo, today was that day! Man iwas mad... But iwore these pants, they were so cute (: Anywhoo when iwent up to go get my paper ifelt people starin at me [thats why ihate gettin up lol] but anywhoo, by time class ended ihad ran into Tre wen we was goin out da door && he gon turn aroun n say dat my butt got bigger? Lmao... Dat was random AF! Now ihope everybody dont be starin at my butt cuz he said that out loud and then sum boys were like who butt got bigger && he pointed me out... Lol SMMFH!

The Illuminati

Signs of the Illuminati

Personally, as a believer of Jesus Christ, i strongly believe in the Illuminati... Jay-Z, iwas NEVER a fan of him because ive always hated his music, there was something strange bout him && now that iam older isee that he as devil worshiper... Along with Beyonce (The Devils Wife), Kanye West, Rhianna, and possibly Lady Gaga! I use to like Kanye's music, that whole Jesus Walks thing iLoved, iwas like finally someone can talk about Jesus in Hip-Hop/ Rap && not care what people say! The isoon seen a change in him that iDID NOT like at all! Rhianna was always weird to me, inever liked her ijus sang her songs when iwas bored... But after her and Chris Brown got into dat lil "ass beatin" she got even weirder and weirder and weirder && idisliked her evn more! Now Lady Gaga is jus one weird mofo! Im highly confused bout her but when iwatched this video talkin bout the lil triangle dat Jay-Z throws up... People you are NOT throwin up the rock, you are throwin up the illuminati && hes telling you to do that for a reason because he wants your soul! Well the pyrimid comes from the back of the dollar bill, and on that dollar bill's pyramid it has one eye... Everytime isee Jay-Z throw up the illumitanti he always has his right eye coverd, leaving only the left eye to be shown in the pyramid that he is thorowing up... AS SHOWN ON THE DOLLAR BILL! (To me it doesnt matter what eye, either way youre still givin it up in my opinion) I have also seen Rhianna do this on her Rated R album cover (Shes not throwing up the illuminati but shes covering her eye) ; Lady Gaga doing the same ; and Kanye West also throwin up the illuminati with Jay-Z!

DollFaceBarbieTM- Illuminati



Illuminati Signs in Rhiannas- Umberella Video

Where Im From

Polk County 863 Faeva && A Day Baby! Believe Dat! I Love All My Flawda Folk... But My Polk County Folk Sumn Special... I Miss It Back Home! Ima Hold It Down Fa Da 863 Til iDie, My Body May B In Atlanta But My Soul In Flawda! Ima Flawda Girl Bitch...

Shout out to all my niggas, zoes, mexicans, my white folk up in Lakeland, Bartow, Winter Haven, Wahneta, Haines City, Lake Wales... Da Whole 863!

His Daughter Knows His Name... Not The Neighbor LMAO!

School Bells RING!

We jus recently went bac to skool Thursday, Aug. 5! Ima Sophmore now, ain nun special bout it! Lol... But what i did notice dat da freshmen boys were lookn gud, iwas choosin lmao! I got sum gud classes dis yr tho, im happy bout dat!

1st pd - spanish i. ; 2nd pd - american literature. 3rd pd - physical science/ 5th lunch :\. ; 4th pd - intro to health (:

Glad igot ppl to sit wit @ lunch, evn tho iam da quietest 1 @ da table lol atleast idnt look lonley af!

But oooowwwweeeeee, lemme tell yall bout dis sexy boy in my 1st pd! lawdy lawdy! Im into chocolate boys all da way, dis boy jus too fine... he brown! He look lyk my brutha && dis boy named leon mixed in da face! oooowwweeee sexy af. He got dese juicy ass lips, whewww lawd! I can go on in on bout him! But i did catch him starin a few times && he prolly caught me bt ican play it off cuz ilook aroun alot! But IWANT DAT && IF ICNT HAV IT IM ST8... MORE WHERE DAT CAME FRUM!

SN: idgaf if he is a freshmen or wteva [idk wat he is yet] ijus lyk... naw iLOVE WAT ISEE!

Bed Intruder

Lmaooo so iwas on FB & dis girl posted a video of dis News episode of where dis man tried to rape dis woman in Huntsville, AL. I was dien lafn cuz ha brutha (Antoine Dodson) is 1 funny muthafcka - farreal lol! My brutha tld me to watch the song they made out of it... Dats hilarious also, im jus surprised dat they evn let dis man be on da news! Smh lmao...

Heres the "Bed Intruder Song" lmao

Everybody please hide ya kids, hide ya wife, and possiby hide ya husband cuz you mite cum across a bed intruder das swingin on both sides lmao!

Shout Out to Antoine Dodson

Spare Me

Lord Pleeeaaaassssseeeeee spare me...

Today my bestie invited me over to her house, her grandparents we outta town and they were bored in wanted to chill...

So me thinkin nun of it ijus went ova there, den as soon as iget ova dere my friend tells dat her uncle mite b checkin in on dem so wen he comes im gon hav to hide [omfg--- goin thru my mind]

So wen he cum ihide n da garage && ihear dem searchin da house, they leave icum bac out... they cum bac in n da closet sweatin lyk a slave [literally--- my shirt was wet af]

Turns out dat they knew iwas dere da whole time && now my friend and her sister gets in trouble for me bein there witout permission!

I really wish this didnt happen becasue dat girl is my best friend, ilove her to death && jus da fact dat iwas dere witout permission shes getting in serious trouble && shes telln me deres a 99% chance she gon get kicked out && we wont be goin to skool togetha... Do anybody understands how ifeel in dis world???? First ihave to leave to leave my family and my two bestfriends down in florida... No dat imoved to Georgia, ifound a friend just like those two and da worst thing icud eva hear is dat we wont be seein eachotha nomo! Dat shit brings tears to my eyes cuz she is literally my ONLY friend... A person dat icud actally call a TRUE FRIEND! She da 1 dat help me survive in dem skool hallways cuz she kno icant take da flawness, ignorance, stupidity, etc. ect. She makes everythang betta && now iaint gon hav nobody... I can neva hav nobody too long wen iwnt dem faeva, da ppl ilove da most/ mean da most to me always leave me! I hate my life rite now, it sucks and i wanna call it a quit!

Dang iwish everythang wud change cuz das like my lil sista rite dere... I love her so much, deres not much more of dis i can take before i break, igotta a room waitin for me patiently in da crazy house... All ican say is before igo home, trick it out 4 me!

Lord please help me!

OHMYGOSHHH!

Ohh my, icnt really believe what my eyes are readin... I was sound asleep and then ihear my fone vibrate! At 1st iwasnt gon read it cuz ithot it was KJ [ewww] ; Khadijah [ehhh] ; or my mom [umm iguess]! But then i decided to open my fone && it was a unknown number! I read tha txt and it was tha boy from Stars and Strikes... A lil late, bt betta late den never (:

Thanks God (:

Hoes Of Douglasville, GA

Soooooo i get on facebook and i look to the right of the wall [people you may know] and i see this page named "Hoes Of Douglasville"... Knowing the funny he he ha ha person that i am, i did not laugh one bit... Dat shit was wrong on so many levels! So what if they are hoes? It doesnt have to be that way... Got pictures of these females/ males and have what they did captioned underneath! My personality is " i dont give a fuck" but when i saw that i cared a lot... What if that could have been me? Something like that could change my life forever... I wish these females and males knew that their pictures are posted on here! Smh... Its ashame how people could stoop so low and be so grimey! NOT COOL! And this is why im oso anti-social!

Mind Of A Maniac [My Georgia Life]

Im such a loner; All by myself; NO friends; NO boyfriend; All i got is my family and my best friend!

My life here sucks ass, at school im so quiet [lame i guess] I jus dont wanna be round all dat b.s/ drama everybody b in... Stupid bitches smh get a life! All i wont is peace; Someone to love and care for... Is that too much to ask? Why does my life have to be a livin hell here?

Sumtymes i jus wanna cry [rite now] ever since i mover here every thing is at 0 on a scale from 1-100... Nothings good for me!

As a matter of fact, Lord please touch me! Make me more friendly, change my attitude, help me smile a lil... I need your help! Im tired of being sad all the time... When are my happy days coming???? I hope real soon because i dont kno how much of this i can take anymore! Im bout to loose it... Seriously! Sumtymes ijus wish my work here on earth was done, then again i dont! If i ever told my mother this she would think im crazy... But im not, im upset, sad, mad, and full of anger!

I believe that ever since ive moved to Georgia, my WHOLE attitude changed! I never remember bein this angry before in my life!

I just wish it all would stop!

Dear God,

Now ikno what i did @ Stars And Strikes wit dat boy was not cool... At all, now thats something iregret!

I wish icud hav gotten the chance to actually meet him && get to kno him as a person instead of make out wit him

Him and his friend seem really cool ppl to b around! But the boy i was makin out wit was not [sexy/ fine] he was "okay" <--- ladies kno wat dat mean! But he was a lil cute && it was sumn bout him dat made me like him a lil [ineva knew dat iwud b n dat postion to where iwud lyk sumone dat wasnt my type]

But yeahh, i gave him my number... He said he would call! But i dont think he ever will :( At first i said that i didnt care but thats until i started to like him a lil... I wish that he could call so we could hang out and really get to know eachother but knowing that he regrets what he did [status updates on facebook] i dont think he ever will...

I just wish i could see him again cuz i like him a lil!

God i kno i ask for a lot, but this that im asking for im not sure if its too much! All i want to do is see him again and just really become good friends because i want a new friend... All i really have is Tia up in lame ol Georgia! But if he doesnt call/ if i dont see him... I understand its all for a reason!

Kim Kardashian W/o Makeup o_O

DAMN! When iseen dis pic iwas lyk WTF, MONSTERRRR LOL! Damn Kim... smh put yo damn makeup on shawdy... #NotCute

Now this below is what we call human lol... She still pretty tho (:

Please Dont Blow My HIGH, Pow Pow...

Awww Shit

Lol me n my dawg Tia went skatin tonite... It was me, my cuzzins ariel && jr, my brutha, tia n ha sista... Boiii can you say packd lyk mexicans? Lol

We went to Sparkles in Hiram, Ga. It was ok bt hot af doe!

Niggas everywhere, fine, ugly, cute, n jus down rite hideous! Lmao

They was lame doe cuz iwas lookn gud af, we all was! N they gon try in get numbas wen we gettn in da car? Really? Das how we get dwn now? See iwuda been da 1st 2 tlk to dem bt mama always tld me... "Dnt chase dick, let dick chase you" aha! They aint wanna chase? Oh well das they fault! I seen dem choosin doe das all gud!

But isweatd out all my curls jesus lol...

But wen it was time to leave niggas wanna fite... It was lame, they all tryna jump dis boy who wasnt evn tryna fite dem... Da ones dat was tryna fite ova dere tlkn shit imean lyk cumon now, if you bout yours den you wudda been quit all dat rappin n went ta scrappin! Aha, bt went they startd fitin da boy dat aint wanna fite was whoopin his ass aha, well he WAS until da otha ones jump in which was weak af shawdy... Real talk!

But eitha way ihad a gud time yonit (:

On The Move [Again]

Dammit, we jus moved to dese apartments... I kinda lyk it, esp since theres boys everywhere :)

Now since my mom found out dat were gon hav a lot of problems lyk leakage/ flood from da apt. above, we gonna move again! ughhhhhh

We jus moved here lyk 3-4 days ago... why are me movin again? It doesnt make any sense to me!

Im highly pissed wit dis... Dis sum bullshit!

I jus wish iwas old enuff to get my own apt. cuz im tired of all dis, esp livin n dis lame ol county, ihate it here... only 2 more yrs or HS lef && icnt take it! AT ALL

Im ready 2 get da fck outta here && my mama dem think im playn, they gon see iaint... 2 more years && best believe ima b gon... N iaint gon be nowhere close to fckn douche-ville fck dat shit!

Old Luva Old Luva

Sooo way bac wen iwas n da 5th grade, iwent out wit dis dude (:

We went out frum 5th grade- 6th grade... Still was togetha n da 7th bt ihad to move to georgia :'( That was tha only thang keepin us frum bein together...

Were in da 10th grade now and still really kool, we speak hear n there... Hes so over protective ova me! He dont lyk me tlkn to no boys nd if they hurt me, make me sad/ mad, hes pissed off to da max!

Hes always there for me, and helps me thru my rough times...

He ALWAYS tell me he loves me, sumtymes ibuy it bt sumtymes idnt believe it cuz of wat ive been thru!

Truth is istill love him too...

If ihad one wish, iwud wish we were together again

We Aint Thru Yet...

Damn ireally thot we was thru, imean lyk we stopped tlkn n you went on n found you sumbody new...

Next thang ikno we talkn again and you STILL telln me you wanna be wit me???? Im confused...

Help a sista out na...

Do you want me still? Afta all dis time you still wanna be my baby evn tho you gotta girl?

Tighten up boo!

Home Sweet Home

Finally home bac in atlanta!
My fav cuzzos Ariel n Jr are here also (:
I let Ariel meet my bestie Tia Mack-Daddy lol, now we all jus need to chill...
But we moved to dese apartments, man iswear we in da projects now lol bt its all qud, aint lyk iaint lived n da projects b4!
But ireally cant wait til Saturday... ima be lookn 2 damn cute fa da car -n- bike sho [ijus hope we can still go]
Well chow for now!

Bone Thugs N Harmony

Aha see people ifcks wit Bone Thugs N Harmony... Da ------Long----> Way!

Many people be lyk wtf yo young ass kno bout dem Thugs... See wat yall dont kno is dat iwas "BORN N RAISED" to dis... Old Skool music is me :)

Been vibin to dis shit here since iwas n da womb... Yall cnt tell me nun! Lol

Idrc wat ppl say bout dem... ijus kno they fye af n istill wanna meet dem!

Ppl always ask me who mt favorite rapper is, they be expectin me to say Lil Wayne or Drake... I definitely dnt fck wit dem, not now nor eva!

So itellem Bone Thugs, Tupac, Biggie, Snoop, Eazy E, Dr. Dre, ect.|ect.

Den of course they start lafn n say you listen to dem old ass niggas n most of em dead!

You damn rite ilisten to dem cuz they wus poppin n wut you listenin to aint!

Folks who listen to Lil Wayne, Drake, etc.|ect. cnt tell nobody shit bout hip hop cuz all they do is degrade women n tlk bout pussy, money, n weed... muthafcka is dat da new motto? Thts all they can account for in life haha... Their nobodies! Lol

Bt anywhooo ifcks wit dem && ithink you shud to lol haha!

Ayeeeeee

Im bouta blow dis popsicle stand baybeee lmao

Mann ive been in florida for a month, must iadd iaint so SHIT while iwas here cuz my famo be trippin out da ass... so lets jus put it dis way "ive been starin @ da same damn walls for a month lmao"

Im soo fckn happy cuz my mommy and daddy is on their way down here to cum get me and my pet dog aka my brutha lol... ive missed dem dearly, so much icried lol [dead ass] lol

Boy im so eager to see dem it feels lyk ive been in damn foster care for damn eva n my parents are finally cumn to da rescue :)

Yall cnt evn imagine, im cheesin lyk hell... my heart is beatin supa fast n im all jumpy n shit cuz hell im ready to c my mama n daddy :)

Its Time...

Seriously, its time for a change... Im dwn to make me a betta me (:

Im dwn in Florida and my gma be telln me bout myself! At 1st iwasnt hearin it, den last nite my gma sed it again den das wen it finally got thru to me dat ireally need to change myself for da betta!

On da real, ihav a real bad attitude... its a idgaf attitude! Wen iuse to live in Florida ihad a attitude bt it WASNT bad bt darn eva since imoved to georgia in 07 my idun got meaner, bitchier, ect|ect.

I realized dat iaint gettn nowhere wit da kinda attitude, so itook my gma advice...

So wen iget bac to georgia ima change my ways [anger management lol]

My goal is jus to do betta in order to be betta!

Da Bet...

Today ijus recently made a bet wit one of my patnas [Rae Rae] dat iwudnt cuss da wholeeeeee day! Lol

Ppl dat kno me well all kno dat idnt last long...

On da real, iwas determined to prove dem wrong cuz all they do is laf wen isay iaint gon cuss for a day!

Well here it goes...

Doin gud, doin gud, doin gud (:

I was so happy, iwas doin so gud... iaint cuss frm 12am-5pm

Thennnnnnn...

Roun 5:30 iask my brutha can iborrow his fone so ican take a new pic for my fb n he was lyk "no cuz u da reason y my stuff deleted las time" ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

He dun pissed me off n icalled him a bitch lmao

Darnnnn iaint last... ima try tomorrow!

Damn O Damn...

Let Me Take You Out by Bryan J Ft. Travis Porter

Let me take you out, babygirl you a cutieeee

Baby let me take you out, to a dinner and a movie

We aint gotta go home, it aint all about yo booty

Baby let me take you out

Baby let me take you out

Baby let me take you out

Mannnn, ireally love dis song so much... They did dat! If dis aint a hit, idk wat it! ily ♥ Travis Porter && Bryan J

Hmmmm I Guess!

Oh wow, Idk wat to say bout ppl dese days... Das y itrust no one!

If you wanna get technical ionly have 2 "REAL" friends which ariel Ariel and Khadijah! We argue 24/7 but ikno we gon make it && ipray to god dat we continue to make it thru cuz ilove dese girls wit all my heart...

Wen 9th grade startd imet dis girl named Tia, we became bestfriends! Now dat she hooked on myspace n jus givin her # 2 all dese dudes we dnt evn tlk dat much lyk damn... So ifeel our friendship goin down da drain!

I still wanna b her friend bt she trippin on sum real shit... I think babygirl needa reality check!

Idk how nex year gon go wit her... ilove her too! I mean how can you not love some one who understands you, n lyk another spittin image of you? We mite as well be sisters... But idk!

Now her sister is here, not only was i da 3rd wheel... ive been pushd bac 2 da 4th && ireally dont wanna deal wit dat!

Idk how to tell her so im jus ventin my ass off lol!

We tlk here n there, bt its nun lyk it use to be...

I guess igotta get out on my own now, icnt sit here n wait! I kno igot 2 ppl das always gon be dere so iaint gon sweat...

Hell im young igotta life to live!!!

Sex Is On My Mind!

Ima virgin! I aint scared to say it, hell im proud!

But ive always thought about it eva since iwas a toddler... weird rite?

Im 15 now and my hormones are raging, but im still waitin on "dat special someone"... I havent met him yet, but ill kno him wen imeet him!

I am sooooo glad ineva gave it up to any of dem stupid boys dat ihave dated in my past, they dnt deserve me nor deserve to take my virginity... Im betta den dat! So is every otha female, were all beautiful in our own way so wait for the one who is "the one"

Ive always wondered when im gon loose it and who 2!

But when my 1st time comes, I want it to be speciallllll :)

I want my favorite song to be playin... Sex Is On My Mind by H-Town or This Womens Work by Maxwell!

I kno its gon hurt really bad, thats one thing that stops me from doin it... Along wit da otha reasons...

Idk y but ijus wonder....

Him!

Eva since we started tlkn icudnt keep my mind offa him!

Always telln me real sweet thangs dat ilovee...

Knowin damn well idont wanna be n a relationship, he keeps telln me how much he wud really lyk to be wit me!

Damn! Now im feelin him...

Im hella confused... Should itake dis chance, or should ikeep livin da single life dat ilove!

Im scared cuz all ican think about is da outcome of how da relationship wud end...

I wanna take dis chance but idk wat iwanna do...

I wanna say yes, but den iwanna say no so ikeep tryna find reasons why idont lyk him... bt icant seem to find one!

He seems lyk a nice guy, but only time can tell...

I just dont wanna get hurt, but hell im strong... mama aint raise no fool!
He said he wanna love me [not sexually], but im kinda wishin he wud jus wanna be friends and at da same time idnt!

I got dis big ass wall up, should ilet it down a lil?

I really dont wanna be tied down cuz idnt lyk havn a nigga blow up my fone 24/7 sayn where you @ or who you wit... bt at da same time imiss dem late nite conversations and iwould absolutely love to have dat again...

I kno im faithful, but is he?

People always ask y dont ihave a boifriend... its by choice! I kno im pretty [not bein cocky, jus sayn] but ijus dont wanna relationship!

I jus dnt kno wat to do...

Creeper, Creeper, Creeper!

Okay lastnite iwas on tagged && this cute lil white boy added me && msgd me...

He was telln me iwas cute n iwas lyk okay, thennn he sent a pic of his dad n tld me 2 rate him 1-10 n iwas lyk 10 cuz he was cute...

Then the boy started passin msgs frm his dad to send 2 me! eeeek, idnt wana tlk to a grown man!

I really hope he was playin n not hittin on me farrel cuz ewwwww!

I found that convo very, extremely weird!

That boy and his dad are both CREEPERS!

Geeshhhhh...

Okay now its been a really long time since ive posted a blog... say what lyk a month or 2? hell idk...

I am extremely bored but idecided to post a blog about nothing really lol...

Well its summertime and im n florida chillin wit da fam n friends!

Life kinda sucks rite now bcuz my fone is off n icant really make any plans...

I was excited lastnite cuz my mom tld me it was goin to be back on by 7/7:30 dis morin.... but its a no sho :(

She jus put money in my lame flex account which wont last me at all

So now ihave to wait til tuesday to recieve my new fone!!! ughhhh

GOODBYE T-MOBILE, HELLO AT&T... LETS HOPE YOURE WORTH IT!

TWO[2] MORE DAYS

Boiiiiii you guys jus dnt kno how happy iam... My life as a freshman is ova (Well in High Skool)

Im bouta be dat Big Sophy lmao (Hope)... Bt eitha way istill hate dat skool!

You guys jus dnt kno how long ihav been waitin on dis day! Lets seeee eva since iwoke up n tha monin on tha 1st day of skool iwas lyk "Damn im ready 4 skool 2 be out" lol...

But now, we hav 2 more days left && they both half days [basically 1 day] im soooo excited!

LLLLEEEEEGGGGGGOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

Sooooo There's This Guyyy...

Wen we 1st tlkd he tld me dat he lykd me... Ima single girl not lookn 4 no relationships!

Its been 2 weeks since we been tlkn... must iadd we tlkd all day yesterday && dis is wt he sed...

"i wanna be ya man, i wanna love u n trust u n maybe u can farther wit me... evn tho dats not wat im lookn 4 im jus sayn... bt i want u 2 be my baby"

THEN HE GOES...

"baby i jus wanna make u smile. ur 2 beautiful 2 not b taken care of. i jus wanna b urs n urs only"

Geeshh im oso speachless! Bt im lykin it...

Go All Out...

Lol that was tha motto for dis year @ CHHS!

Welllll today we finally got our yearbooks, well i got mine cuz iwas sick tuesday wen everybody got them!

I am soooo proud of myself, my pic is cute (: bout time!

I gotta give a shout out to tha camera lady for makin me smile && do did yo thang girl! lol

But it was a lot of funny things in dere, me n my brutha was rollin!

I cnt wait til my Senior year so ican hurry up n graduate bt to mainly see how i've changed (:

Countdown Til I...

BUST OUTTA DIS BIHHH!

No im not locked up, im talmbout skool! hell mite as well say...

Summer is oso near n im ready to get tha fck outta chhs, extraa bad!

I hate bein dere its lyk "Hell on Earth". Naww scratchh dat, livin in dis world is lyk "Hell on Earth, bt bein at chhs is only a piece of it" ican only imagine the real Hell!

But as of NOW, we got 10 days left (2weeks) damn baby. dat shit makes me happy as fck! Outta all my life livin in ATL, ive neva seen myself dis happy (except goin to florida)
IM SO READY!!!!

Hot Diggity Dawg!

Damn, its been wat? years since ibeen on dis shit! My damn laptop gotta fckn virus cuz all dat musik frum limewire, so im usin tha regular computer (it just got fixed today). Geeezzzzz, wat am igon do witout my baby? I cnt download no musik... waaaaaaa (criess)! Oh well iguess ill get ova it! Deuces (:

Progress Reports

Today we got progress reports... not dat happy, bt glad to kno im passin doe!

Honors Lit.- 75 C; Math I.- 88 B; Team Sports.-75 C; Business Ess.-82 B

Now ikno ican do wayyy muchh better so im tryna get my grades up there cuz tha skool year is endin in a month and idnt want NO Cs, Ds, or Fs or my report card... im aimin for a B (:

Wit tha help of God... ican get there (: Jus gotta start runnin dem laps... GEESHH!

Run Up Get Done Up

Okayy im not a lover && most deff not a fighter either... bt ill get dwn if ihav too!

I mind my own business, dnt mess wit nobody, quiet as hell @ skool... so why do dese muthafckas continue to press my buttons?

Afta skool, it was me n my bestfriend waitin for tha bus! we wasnt botherin nobody... jus mindin our own business playn a game "He Can Get It" lol.

Bt anyways dis bitch gon cum up tlkn shit, iwas calm @ 1st bt still iaint finna let nobody cum up n tlk shit to me... so ijus went off lyk wtf! youu a boy && ima girl... bitch iaint scared! iwas raised to fight anybody and everybody!

Bt im the type to black outt, thats not gud doe... it feels lyk sumns takn ova my body and its oso uncontrollable! at dis point of goin off, iwas 1/2 way gon n ready to swing! bt all ihear is my mama sayn stopp hittin ppl 1st... so idid tha right thang && wlkd away, lyk my gma tld me 2 do!

How bout dis white bitch cumn behind me steady tlkn shit! at dis point ihav had it! so iturn aroun && im hella ready to beat dat ass so itell hm to runn up... youu kno wat his pussy ass do? he bac tha hell up cuz he kno wussup!

Bt best believe igot dat ass... Kevin Powell, ima fck yo pussy ass up one day! play wit it!

R.I.P Jamar Moore

7.23.88 - 4.45.10

I kno we aint really been aroun eachotha muchh... but nun of dat matters!

Either way youu put it we still family && iaint got nun bt lovee for youu!

I jus wish iwas able to spend more time to actually get to kno you for you... cuz tha last time iseen you at Auntie Sally house it was jus a lil hey & bye thing!

Wen my mama tld me dat youu was cumn dwn to ATL wit Sharbriel, iwas reallyyyy lookn fwd to chillin wit youu, bt things change...

Even tho iaint get a chance to spend time wit you, im jus glad igot tha opportunity to meet you!

Best believe tha family gon hold it dwn fa youu!

♥ youu.

Blah Blah Blah... Naggers

Boy o boy, i tell ya... females dese days! yall hoes kill me

Lyk farreal doe, str8 up... why worry bout niggas? they aint shit... iagree wit my gma, we too yung to be worried bout love && bein caught up in a damn relationship! live life while youu can cuz youu only get one life to live...

See, iaint evn gon flexx... ilove tha boyz! bt im jus way to smart to get caught up! do iwanna boyfriend? nahh not rite now... am i lookn for "tha one"... hell naw iaint lookn, fa wat? his ass aint jus gon fall out tha air rite into my life! why am isingle? cuz baby its stress fckn free... its tha gud lifee... youu shud try it (:

Everyday ibet there is bout more than 10 females cryn ova a nigga... baby why are youu cryn && stressin ova sumone whose feelins werent mutual? every dude youu go wit, they always say "ithink hes tha one!" now tell me... wat in tha hell did he say that makes youu think that! wait lemme guess... "baby ilove you so much, iwanna be wit you faeva n iwant you to have my kids" lmao im pretty sure dat line go way bak lyk hairlines! nun is true... lyk tha song say women lie, men lie... get a grip! its life!

iaint jus postin dis cuz im tired of dese naggin ass females, im postin dis cuz ive been thru tha same shit && ive learnt how to deal wit it... girls, no matta wat a dude say youu are all beautiful in your own way! you dnt need a man to make you happy... youu can do dat by yo self (no sexually lmao) bt ihate to see girls get put dwn by dudes && vice versa!

bt my main problem is dem naggin ass females... "niggas play too many games, so idnt fck wit dem" lmao girl you stupid... tha reason why all tha niggas you fck wit is cuz youu keep messin wit tha wrong kind! now iaint evn gon flexx, females play games too so iaint takn sides!

bt its wteva doe... ikno im doin rite by bein single, less tha heartbreak! but fa yall females who dont lyk bein played you hav 2 options... 1. be single && happy or 2. cheat lyk a nigga n dnt get played lyk a bitch (hoe) lol...

My Day 4.22.2010

Whoa babyyyy lmao... today @ chhs was wild as hell! lyk farreal, aint shit popped off all year!

There was lyk a damn fite n all my classes except 1st pd... it was all cool, calm && collected...

2nd pd: nikay vs. bria (dat was sum funny shit); den jonathan retarded ass had to jump in && say sumn as always so celeste got on dat ass... so now its celeste vs. jonathan (even funnier); den wen we all thnk it starts to calm dwn coach curry flip tha hell out n jus go crazy on tha whole damn class... next thang youu kno its darryl vs. coach curry (tha funniest)... ihad a gud ass laf so im ready to see wussup tomorrow lol...

3rd pd: is gym, ialways sit n watch dem sexy weight tranin boyz play bball... bt trent && shaun been goin at it ever since yesterday... bt trent thru tim on tha ground supa hard, im surprised he aint break nun... bt shaun got heated wen he seen dat n ran up n hit trent in tha face cuz they seniors n he puttn his hands on a lil freshman... so wen youu start to think thing calm dwn, all youu hear is trent say "bitchhhh" n by this time shawn has had it... you can see it all ova his face... so he run up again n start fitin... shaun vs. trent... sadly it got broken up cuz chris (alien) dragged trent to tha otha side of tha gym so he cudnt fite hm && tha otha chris (nasty) jus went tha hell off on shaun... neva expected dat outts hm cuz he laid back... so for a min it was chris (nasty) vs. shaun --- afta all dat, we go bac into tha locker room so we can dress bac out n go to our next class... all you hear is "bitch dis, bitch dat" now its portia vs. deja... im lyk aww lawd... they was fightin ova a nigga (portia's bf) iguess him n deja was talmbout stuff dat aint needed to be tlkd about... afta dat igo tell my best tia wat happened && she tell me her n dis girl they call janet jackson went @ it... tia vs. janet lmao wowzers... afta dat ihear bout dis otha fite dat happened durn 3rd pd also, ithink it was durn 4th lucnch... dese 2 females was gettn off... india vs. arionne (im mad imissed dat one)

4th pd: im thinkin everybody gon be okay... damn wasnt iwrong... everybody was jus goin off n gettn mad @ eachotha... iwas lyk hell naw bt lafn @ tha same time...

On tha bus: wesley always tlkn shit... so him n maya was bout to fite... iswear they was bout to get off until sumbody broke it up... damn iwas mad ihad front row seats!

See dis tha kinda shit ilyk bein aroun cuz das all im use to... school lame wit no fites! jus str8 out borin, iaint use to dat shit! bt it was funny as hell... cnt wait to see wt tomorrow brings... (:

Vroom Vroom Vrooooom...

Well well well, looky looky... its bout time fa babygirl to drive (:

Im 15 bout to be 16 n iaint evn got my learners yet damn! lol

Ima freshman in high skool and by my sophmore year iwanna drive to skool... (no rides) lol

Ima be drivin my mama's shitty ass Kia Sophia lmao until iget a car...

My dream care is a Cadillac Escalade or any truck... gotta look gud

But if icnt get dat iwanna Honda Accord, sumn small fa my midgetness lmao...

I dnt really care wt my parents get me... as long as it looks gud && ilook gud in it (:

My Husband (Roscoe Dashh)

Dis nigga here... he go hardd lyk farreal! and lets not add he sexy af... dis my babyyyy (:

igotta crushh on him oso muchh lol... bt ibe bumpinn dis nigga extraa heavy... ilovee all his songs && him... lol im notta groupiee... justa hugee fan baby (:

I neva really thot he was cutee until my boo ariel (nh) pointed it out to me n iwas lyk damn he is sexyy... bt ilovee his musik! idnt care wt ppl say bout his musik... ilyk it n das all dat matters...

Roscoe Baby... iSupport youuu (: